Despite our mutual independence, we relied on each other; we both assumed the other cared, though we didn't have many outwardly tender moments. She knew I was the girl who waited on her, who encouraged her antics, and I always imagined she gave me the same consideration, and she mostly did, albeit on her own terms.
Later in life, Chérie grew calmer, more thoughtful. And it was strange to see her increasingly dependent, even lovable. It wasn't her choice, it was simply the passing of years that siphoned her strength. After many years, when she was 16, she finally began to show weakness--the first she'd ever shown. Though her spirit was strong, her body began to betray her and so it was, toward the end of her life, when she began to learn to rely on me.
It was funny, too. I had, up until then, spent a large part of my own emotional life being just a bit too strong, and too in control. I had, in parallel with Chérie, only recently learned to trust and understand that in weakness, there is strength; leaps of faith could be taken. After 16 years, Chérie and I took that leap together. At long last she needed me, and wasn't too proud to show it, and I wasn't afraid to show her that I needed her. At last.
Together, we were absolute beginners, learning to trust, and learning to love.